“Flechette said you were sounding pretty fatalistic when you were on patrol, a little while ago. I know you were fond of Gallant, that you were pretty inconsolable when you were in the hospital, at his bedside.”
It sounds like Weld is concerned that Vista may be suicidal. An entirely valid concern, seeing her attitude towards death from the outside.
Vista looked away.
“And now you’re acting like nothing fazes you, even the idea of you maybe dying in the near future. I have to know, Missy. Do you have a death wish? Are you going to be putting yourself in unnecessary danger?”
It’s an unpleasant question to have to ask, but it’s something that really needs to be addressed.
I know some of the things I’ve just been writing might make it seem like I’m confident about Vista not being suicidal, but that’s unintentional. I really don’t know what the true answer to this question is, even though I’m 95% certain Vista’s going to deny it. If she does have a death wish, I think she’s denying it to herself as well, which is part of why she’s not acknowledging anything like that directly in the narration.
“No,” she said. When his expression didn’t change, she repeated herself, louder, “No. You saw me against the Travelers. I don’t think I did anything stupid there.”
I suppose not.
“You didn’t.”
“I just want to do a good job as a member of this team. Carry on their memory. Act like they would want me to act. I can work twice as hard, be twice as tough, twice as strong, if it means making up for them being gone.”
So that’s what she meant about “doing Gallant justice”. Doing everything to protect the city like he and Aegis would.
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