Hm. The mention of grief for Gallant in the last post sent my mind down a couple associations and gave me an idea:

What if the final chapter of this arc is from the POV of Chariot as he joins the Wards? I mean, if this Arc is going to go through every Ward, why not include the new guy, especially after opening with two other new ones? Besides, that would be a good way to reveal/confirm what his deal is and whether he’s actually working for Coil, Taylor or someone else entirely.

“You wanted to talk to me?” she asked.

“I sent Flechette on patrol with you because she’s got an objective perspective on the team, and I wanted to see if her thoughts on you echoed my own.

Ah, interesting. So then I guess he’s going to talk to her about Clockblocker next.

True enough, you were only out for a short while, and she’s already expressed concerns.”

Yeeah, being this comfortable with one’s own future death at age 13 is unusual and can be signs of more worrying things.

“Okay.”

“Tell me straight up, are you doing okay?”

“People keep asking me that.  I’m fine.”

She does seem to be doing alright for the most part, at least judging by what we’ve seen so far. But she might also be unwilling to actually acknowledge that she’s not fine even in her own narration, forcing us to read between the lines… but yeah, she does seem mostly fine. The only real exception is the grief for Gallant, which is to be expected.

Sophia was manning the console, browsing Facebook.

…naturally.

Kid Win was testing out the armor – four guns with the size and shape of large pears were floating around the shoulders in a loose formation.

Cool!

Rather than distract Chris or have to deal with Sophia again, Vista left the headquarters and headed into the elevator.  Weld’s room was in the hallways one floor up, opposite Kid Win’s workshop.

The door was open, and he was there, reclining on the a heavy-duty chair of the same model as the one he had in the conference room.

Hi again! What’s up?

He had headphones on, his feet on a granite counter where his computer sat.  She’d never been in his room.  Looking around, she saw rack upon rack of CDs, DVDs and vinyl records.  There was no bed, but he didn’t really need to sleep, so that made some sense.  It was easily possible that he slept in the chair.

Sounds about right.

His head was bobbing with the music until he spotted her.  He gave her a quick nod, pulled off his headphones and turned off the speaker system.

Music is such a good thing. I love music. 🙂

So I say… thank you for the music, I guess.

Bristling at the midget comment and the crack about her chest, Vista just stared at herself in the mirror, ignoring the girl.

Yeeah, fuck you, Sophia.

Sophia finished washing her hands, then got her toothbrush and brushed her teeth.  She took her time, while Vista stood there, clutching the towel around herself with both hands.

Honestly, out of everyone on the team, Sophia is probably the one person who just straight up wouldn’t care about the scar, but that doesn’t mean Vista should let her be the first to know about it.

Finishing, Sophia put her toothbrush away, and, as she’d been doing recently, put a hand on Vista’s head as she passed by.  Only this time, she mussed up the younger girl’s hair, with more roughness than was necessary.  “Carry on, kid.”

I mean, it could be worse, but I do wonder if Sophia is aware of Vista’s distaste for being patronized and is doing it on purpose. I don’t know, but I wouldn’t put it past her.

Great, Vista thought.  Dennis might be acting more like his old self, but Sophia is too.

Huh, so Sophia had a period when she wasn’t acting like this?

She combed out her hair, sorting out the tangles that Sophia’s attention had given her, dried off, and then went to her locker to get a change of clothes: A t-shirt, sweatshirt and flannel pyjama pants.  Comfortable clothes.  She pulled on slippers and went to find Weld.

Yeah, I’d much rather have you talk to him than Sophia.

Vista might have tried asking Panacea to fix it, but hadn’t been able to summon up the courage.  Now, as she thought about it, she thought maybe she didn’t really want to get rid of it.

Sometimes injuries and the marks of them can be comforting reminders.

A part of her took a perverse kind of pride in the fact that she had a scar, as though it was some kind of proof to herself that she was a good soldier.  It was a sort of validation of the philosophy she’d been outlining to Flechette.  Why stress about a scar on her chest when some villain could kill her before it became an issue?

Heh, yeah, good point.

A toilet flushed in one of the bathroom stalls, and Vista hurried to pull her towel from around her shoulders and wrap it around herself, hiking it up to cover the scar on her chest.

Sounds like she does still keep it secret.

Sophia strolled over to the sink next to Vista.  She gave the younger girl a cool look, “Don’t freak out, midget.  It’s not like you have anything worth hiding.”

Oh great. Just the person we wanted to talk to right now.

*drip*

It had only been later that she’d seen how serious it was, how much it had been bleeding into the fabric of her costume, underneath her breastplate. She’d stitched it up herself, here, in the showers.

Well… that’s honestly kind of hardcore. Did the others ever find out?

She’d done as best as she was able, worked with a kind of grim determination.  Not the most competent job, in the end.

To be expected, I suppose.

She kind of regretted that series of decisions, now.  She was a late bloomer, looked younger than she was, but when she did eventually have the sort of cleavage she could show off, the scar would be there, plain as day.

Well, if they don’t know now, they will if she starts showing off her cleavage. Which it sounds like she does want to do someday.

It might even be worse, when that time came, depending on how the scar stretched as her chest grew.

Unfortunate.

Well… at least it could act as a conversation starter with new people, I guess? Though I suppose she’d be showing her cleavage primarily in her civilian clothes rather than while she’s Vista, which sort of defeats that point unless her identity goes public.

There were older injuries too.  Small scars on her hands, tiny cuts on her legs, the bump of a dime-sized keloid scar on the top of one foot.  The one that caught her eye was on the right side of her chest, an inch and a half down from her collarbone.

Check off “Krixwell looks up a word” on your bingos, folks. Keloid scars are… wow, quite visible, by the looks of it.

I suppose it only makes sense that these things start to stack up over the years, even with healers like Panacea available.

An inch wide, the scar puckered inward a bit.  It had been the result of an altercation with Hookwolf as the villain escaped the scene of a grisly attack on a grocer, a year ago.

Ouch.

A blade on the villain’s arm had punctured her armor as he’d knocked her aside.  She’d felt the pain of her skin being penetrated and she’d kept quiet about it out of a desperate need to shake the label of being the team baby.

That’s a really bad idea. Especially when the wound is this big!

She didn’t want to be seen as the one always in need of help and protection.  It would have been embarrassing to ask for medical attention, only for it to be a scratch.

Fair enough, though as it turns out, this was clearly not just a scratch.

‘Tis but a flesh wound!

The water had removed most of it, but there was a line of dried blood flecks on her throat from where the wire had pulled against it.

Wire? Did I miss something here?

…oh cod did she get so upset by what happened to Bastion that she tried to…

She had another, similar, mark on her left arm, by her elbow.  She picked the flecks away with one fingernail, then rinsed her finger clean with a spray of water from the faucet.

Okay it sounds like this is about something more recent. Otherwise she’d have done this quite some time back, probably.

(Also, I suppose what happened to Gallant wouldn’t exactly help either.)

Only a pink line remained.  Neither serious enough to warrant worrying about.  There was bruising on one of her knees, the thigh and around the side of her pelvis where the bone was closest to the skin, from where rubble had fallen on her, green-yellow in color.

It definitely seems like she’s been through something we didn’t see.

Or, wait, is this from the Traveler fight?

*searches blog for “wire”*

Ohh, right, that wire. I’m not sure how I managed to forget that.

She cranked the water off and walked over to the sink to look at herself in the mirror, her towel around her shoulders.

I wrote a poem about mirrors yesterday, inspired by something I said about them while liveblogging 1.1.

I see your pained expression looking at me
Your baggy, dried-out eyes
Your wild hair sticking out in every direction

You look at me, I look at you

All I do is sit right here

And tell you what I see 

But maybe that’s enough?

It felt strange, removing her costume.  It was like she wasn’t herself.  When had she started seeing herself more as Vista than as Missy Biron?

Probably around the time you put this highly enough that you became this comfortable with the possibility of death.

And sheesh… I’d be hard pressed to find an actual first name that sounds more patronizing to address someone by than Missy.

When her parents divorced, and she started taking extra shifts to get away from the oppressive atmosphere?  After one year on the team, two?

Who knows…

She hung the towel up and stood under the spray of hot water, rinsing off the dirt and the grime that had come with the damp, dirty water that was everywhere outside, now.

Can I just say? This scene would be kinda uncomfortable in any sort of video format, even with respectful camera angles.

It didn’t take long to soap up and rinse off, but she spent a long few minutes leaning there with her hands against one wall of the stall, letting the water run over her, not thinking about anything in particular.

Relatable.