“No,” Amy said, as if that was that.

She glanced at me.  “Thank you for bringing her to me so I could help her.  Um.  I don’t want it to be a nasty surprise, so you should know I didn’t give the bugs I designed any proper digestive systems.  They’ll starve to death before the week’s over, but the Nine will be gone by then.  If they aren’t, we’re all fucked anyways, aren’t we?”

Well, shit.

Does that include Atlas?

It probably includes Atlas.

I looked down at Atlas, then back to her.  I clenched my fists.  “I’m using them to help people.”

“For now, sure.  In the future?  I couldn’t be sure.  So I put a time limit on them.  Let’s go, Victoria.”

Yeah… I kinda saw something like this coming, though I’m not sure how clear I’ve been about it. Amy’s just not the type to be willing to give villains permanent benefits.

“Hey!”  I shouted.  My swarm stirred around me as the pair turned to walk away.

What’cha gonna do? You can’t really attack them all that well if you were to go for that. You shouldn’t, anyway. That’d be rude.

“No,” Tattletale said, putting a hand on my shoulder.

“But she-”

“She’s not thinking straight.  We’ve all been there.  You don’t want to start a fight.  We’ve got other enemies to focus on without making more.”

Lisa’s right. Besides, Amy’s done a lot to help them, even if it turns out it’s just temporary.

I was pissed off enough that I wanted to hit someone.  I couldn’t even articulate the entirety of why I was so angry.  I’d gone out of my way to be nice to her, to empathize, to save her sister, and save both of their lives.  And this was how she repaid me?  A slap in the face, a final gesture to make her distrust for me as blatant as possible?

Fair enough, but I honestly think she was telling the truth about saying that so it didn’t become a nasty surprise when it happened.

I also think some of Taylor’s anger is because she’s started bonding with Atlas and doesn’t want to lose him.

“I’m trying to fix this!”  Amy raised her voice.  “Why are you making this a thing?  Why do you even care?”

Tattletale shrugged.  “I talked about it with Grue, Bitch and Regent.  We were considering offering you a place on the team.”

I have reason to believe she won’t take it (either that or the askers have been sneaky in a way I approve of), but still: Hell yeah!

Also, did she not talk about it with Imp, or is Imp forgotten right now?

I looked at Tattletale in surprise.  I glanced at Bitch.  Even her?

Huh, yeah.

To be fair, Lisa never said the three of them all agreed. Even if Lisa was the kind of liar that stuck to technical truths (like I thought she might early on), what she said wouldn’t actually mean she successfully convinced any of the others.

Amy scowled, “As if.  You’re such hypocrites.  Regent mind controls people all the time!”

In before someone, most likely Regent, points out that technically, it’s body control.

“Regent mind controls the monsters, the bad guys,” I said.

“Taking advantage of bad people for selfish ends.”

Well, yeah…

Though, uh, does Taylor know about the people at Regent’s base?

“What you’re doing is selfish,” Tattletale cut in.  “You think you’re doing it for her, but you’re only doing it to soothe your own guilt.”

I suppose that would be the core of the “lying to yourself” Lisa mentioned earlier.

She smiled, but it wasn’t a happy expression.  “Burned that bridge.  But I’m sixteen now, I can get a job somewhere, start making a real difference with my power.”

I guess sixteen is the age limit on those rules and regulations, in spite of the Wards’ limit being eighteen.

Also apparently Amy’s birthday is in the latter half of the year. Marquis, when given the year but not a date, thought she’d be seventeen, which suggests she hasn’t had her birthday yet this year.

“And the last thing you’ll do for your family is this?  Hypnotizing your sister when she’s already mad at you for assaulting her and fucking with her head?”  Tattletale asked.

Right. Probably not the best parting gift.

“The last thing I’m going to do is fix her.”

Yes, good.

“A means to an end.”  I stepped forward a little. “Trust me when I say I’ve been down that road.  I don’t recommend it.”

Hm? I’m not sure what Taylor is talking about here.

“You don’t understand.”

“Wasn’t it only a little while ago that you admitted you couldn’t figure out what you needed to do to put things right?  You asked me to make the call.”

Oh yeah. Is that still standing?

“Because you had the experience in making calls on morality in dangerous situations, situations where I can’t even think straight,” Amy said.

…you know things have changed between them when Amy defers to Taylor for calls on morality.

Her voice hardened a little, “But I have the impression that you don’t have that same expertise when it comes to family.”

Oof. That’s gonna sting.

Hey, I wonder how Danny’s doing.

I thought of my dad, and it sat heavily enough in my mind’s eye that I couldn’t formulate a response.

Grue formulated one for me.  “You’re one to talk.”

Yeeah.

“Doesn’t matter.  She would have reacted sooner if she’d been getting enough sleep, if her emotions weren’t off kilter.”

Like I was saying. This is a Taylor-level self-blame.

“Amy-” I started.

She shook her head so violently that I stopped mid-sentence.  “I can almost feel right about this.  I patch things up, and then I go.”

A clean break might actually be good here, I suppose.

Amy bent down and touched her sister.  Glory Girl stirred and sat up.  With Amy’s help she stood.

“You’re lying to yourself,” Tattletale said.  “And you’re making things worse.”

Probably, yeah.

“Just- I’m just keeping her complacent.  I’m okay with it if she doesn’t forgive me for it.  Don’t deserve it anyways.

You do deserve it.

And yeah, we don’t want Victoria punching anyone right now.

I do this, and then I’ll go somewhere I can be useful.  Only reason I haven’t made more of myself and my power is because of the rules and regulations about exploiting minors with powers.

What?

I mean, I’m not surprised such rules exist, but how have they been keeping her from using her power?

Either go into government or don’t work at all, and didn’t want to go into government because they would have made me a weapon.  And because I needed to be with my family.”

Ahh, I see.

She hugged her arms against her body.  There were tears in her eyes.

“You need to fix her mind now.  For you, not for her.  Maybe she’ll forgive you at a later date, when she’s thinking clearly again,” Tattletale said.  “Maybe then she can approach you, you two can start interacting again, you rebuild that trust over months or years, and you can finish healing her body when she gives you her permission.”

Honestly, yeah. Yeah, I’m with Lisa here.

“Or I can fix her now, undo what I did and then walk away forever, because I don’t deserve forgiveness and she shouldn’t have to live like this because- because a wrong I committed fucked with her focus or made her too aggressive or-”

Lisa’s approach is way healthier on all fronts.

And this is not your fault, Amy. Seriously.

Hell, if the focus/aggression thing was as much of a problem as you seem to be making it in your head, she shouldn’t even have been allowed to fight in the first place.

“It wasn’t like that,” I said.  “She didn’t have time to react.  I was watching.  These injuries Crawler inflicted were not your fault.”

Thank you, Taylor. 🙂

Now tell yourself that about a couple of the things you’re blaming yourself for.

These two really do have a lot in common sometimes.

Amy shook her head, “She needs to eat, and I need to rest.  I can speed up her digestion, like I did with breaking down the bugs inside her.  But I need so much material that it’s going to take a lot of food if I’m going to get everything she needs.  One night, and I can make her normal.”

Huh. That’s not that bad, really.

Tattletale shrugged, “That’s fine.  Just undo what you did first.”

But yeah, Amy’s deflecting and Lisa won’t have that.

“If she fights me and doesn’t let me finish-”

“That’s her choice.”  Tattletale repeated herself.

“No!  That’s- that’s not her.  That’s the change I made doing the talking, or the aftermath of it.  Even if I removed all the neural connections that have been made since, there’s so much more in the emotional cocktails and hormonal balances.

Hm.

Hmmm.

Fuck, we’re back to the issue of consent when brainwashed. Just a different kind of consent, and with the brainwashing having the opposite effect of what it was “supposed” to.

She’s channeling it into anger instead of… instead of love.”

Love.  The implications were so fucked up.  It was the sort of thing Heartbreaker did.

Yep.

The difference is Heartbreaker does it on purpose.

Glory Girl didn’t look ‘done’.  Scars crawled across her body, angry-looking, surrounded by burns from the acid and flames.  Her skin in areas where the flesh had melted away was so new and stretched so thin that it was translucent, and there was little to no body fat to pad the area between skin and muscle.

She looks a bit less, y’know, glorious.

“Fix her,” Tattletale said.  “You know what you did to her, you know it was wrong, undo it and walk away.”

Yeah, here we go.

“Can’t,” Amy shook her head, “I said I’ve done as much as I can, but there’s so much more I need to fix.  The parts I made with the bits I took from bugs will need to be replaced with real flesh.”

That’s not what Lisa meant and you know it, Amy.

“That’s her choice.  You saved her life, good on you, but you need to let her make the call.”

Right, fair enough.

Yet you’re asking Amy to mess with Victoria’s brain again without consent, even if it’s just to set right what she did.

“Why do you care so much?  You’re a bad guy.”

That’s a good question. Why does Lisa care so much about this? Does it have to do with her sense of sanctity of her own brain? Or is she just genuinely interested in helping Amy get over some of this stuff and then become a villain?

“Oh yeah,” Tattletale replied in a dry tone, “I’m evil, right?  Maybe that’s all the more reason to listen if I’m saying that something’s fucked up and wrong?”

Sounds like it’s closer to the former. If she’s telling the truth.

Also, this puts an interesting perspective on Lisa’s relationship with Alec. He doesn’t make people

emotionally

love him like his dad does (actually, the rape thing is super appropriate in relation to the difference powerwise between Heartbreaker/Cherish and Alec – the other two make people love them emotionally, while Alec used to make people love him physically), but it’s still a connection that could strongly affect Lisa’s opinion on him.

“Yeah, of course,” I told her.  I began calling a swarm to me.  I’d already exhausted the surrounding area of most, and the ones I hadn’t already called forth were buried in the deepest recesses and most awkward areas, where it was so inefficient and time-consuming to bring them to me that I’d left them where they were.

Well, at least it’s something.

It took some time to bring them to the area.

“How was the battle going?”  Grue asked.

Are we in for more chat while the bugs arrive? I’d be down for that.

“The heroes seemed to be managing, but I don’t know how things are going to turn out,” I said.  I looked at Shatterbird, who floated above us.  “We could use her help.”

A little risky, since the heroes might not immediately recall that Shatterbird is under Undersider control, or be sure that she still is, or will stay so. But if they can get past that hurdle, she could do a lot of good.

Though Regent has to stay close to her to maintain control, doesn’t he. So he’d have to go near the battle himself, which means he’d be at risk of getting Crawlered. And if he got taken out, Shatterbird might break free and fuck everything up.

“Don’t trust myself to control her if she’s too far away,” Regent spoke.

I made a face.  “Right.  But she could carry you?”

To get there, perhaps, but it’s probably a bad idea to stay that way during combat.

“She almost dropped me once before.  It’s pretty hard to hold on to someone, especially without the leverage you have when you’re on the ground.”

True enough. Taylor should understand, she’s been on the held side of that arrangement before.

The first bugs were arriving in front of Amy.  She began dissolving them into their constituent parts and pressing them into Glory Girl’s abdomen.  When she raised her hand, they were gone.

Nice.

She held her hand out for more to gather while keeping one hand on Glory Girl.

Minutes passed before Amy stood and wiped her bloody hands on her pants.  “Done as much as I can.”

Thank you.

I’m guessing she didn’t fix the brain thing, though, which Lisa might press her on further.

“My power tells me some of it,” I said, “And I did some reading after we took over our territories, trying to research that stuff.

I didn’t even feel the need to mention the time she’s had to research stuff after she started caping.

It was an idle thought, but I was thinking that if we got into a food shortage, I could feed my people with bugs.”

Well, wouldn’t be the first time she stuck them into someone’s mouth, I guess.

And in some cultures, people do eat insects. In Japan, you can even get wasp cookies.

Imp made a gagging noise.

“Wow,” Regent said.  “See, you just started off by making me think you were warped and creepy because you were suggesting Panacea turn Glory Girl into some sort of bug-borg, and now you’re making me think you’re creepy and weird because you wanted to feed bugs to people who aren’t your enemy.”

Pfffft.

Seriously, I wish we got to see this side of Regent more often. He’s fun when he makes on-point comments like this.

“It was just an idea,” I said, maybe more defensively than I should have, “And bugs are nutritious.  People all over the world eat them.”

They do, it’s true.

I mean, I wouldn’t want to, but…

“Have you?” Grue asked.

I kinda love how off-topic this has gotten.

I shook my head, “But I would have tried them first, if I decided to go ahead with that plan.”

“Please,” Amy cut in.  “Can you?”

Taylor: “What, eat a bug right now?”

I turned to her.  It took me a second to realize what she meant, after the line of questioning from the others.

Yeah, she’s not asking you to demonstrate the eating of bugs. :p

I love this little tangent. If I did numerical ratings for the chapters, I think this last post or so’s worth of dialogue would add a point or two on its own.