I’m interested to see that a lot of people interpret Amy’s motivations/mental state and what Victoria became very differently to how I do. People seem to see a purpose or direction that I just don’t? I understood it to be that Amy fell into one of those feverish/nightmare states where you’re trying to do something very important but keep forgetting where you’re up to, so you start over and over. “What does Victoria look like? Swan neck, yes. Beautiful hair, yes. Delicate fingers, yes. What else? There’s a head there somewhere. What next? Oh, her hair, that’s important. I guess there are legs. No, I forgot her neck, got to put the neck in. What else? Hands, yes, what else…” Knowing that it wasn’t right but every time she tried to fix it she got caught in the loop again. It’s kind of an indication, to me, of how not in her right mind she was – she couldn’t even make her fit a human body plan? What state do you have to be in to forget that?
This sounds like a perfect description to me, yeah! This is exactly the kind of thing that would lead to the most important parts (to Amy) showing up over and over, and it fits with Amy’s description of what happened pretty well.
And yeah, I don’t think she had any more purpose or direction than “fix this”. And she failed to fix it, hard, because she was so damn out of it. Everything that had happened over the last, what, week or two? It all drove her to this.
What state do you have to be in? Clearly you have to be in Massachusetts.
So you know how sometimes you get a song stuck in your head, but you don’t fully know the lyrics, just certain bits of the song that you particularly like?
And so you find yourself idly singing the song to yourself, but not the way it’s supposed to be. Instead, you’re singing just the bits you really like, and since you don’t know the rest and can’t connect them, the song becomes a mishmash of those few bits, repeated over and over, in an almost random order.
Your brain is stuck, trying over and over again to recreate the song, but it can’t finish the puzzle, because it only has its favorite pieces and can’t remember where they go.